a year later...

he continues to amuse me even after a year! what just happened this year tops the last one... n i had to share this experience...

i'v just moved to b'lore a month back and dont know many people that well... so this year i spent my janmashtami at home.. practically not doing anything.. exactly like i spend the rest of my days since i moved..

since i had fasted and all my neighbor came to my rescue and told me that a big krishna murti was going to come to their house for darshan and i could visit!!

but that day was my brother's birthday and a lot of guests were at home.. so i couldn't leave..

at night, tired and all, i slipped into a half sleep-half unconsciousness when about midnight, i heard something that sounded like a blast. i woke with a start but then just thought it must've been some transformer problem or something.. as i was just about to fall asleep again, i heard fireworks.. almost ready to yell at the people for making noise at midnight, i went to the front door, opened it and was greeted by a 6 feet huge krishna murti downstairs..facing me!! the blast i had heard was the tyre of the truck and i could not believe that i would get the darshan in such circumstances... Him riding on a truck with a flat tyre and me in my pajamas!! :)

later that day, i recounted the incidence to a friend of mine while she didnt quite understand why the fireworks went off.. n then it struck me.. it was at midnight.. on janmashtami..!!

i got the darshan exactly at the birth time of krishna!!

although the whole incidence was a little "flimy".. but thats just his style i guess..!

my krishna! :)

happy birthday!!

its janmashtami...the day he was born...

and this year nobody is celebrating it because of "swine flu"...but it still means all the same to me...its his birthday! how can i not celebrate it?

with a huge smile on my face since morning, as if its my birthday n not his...i'm simply dancing around...everything is going so well today...everyone looks so relaxed and happy...everything is so beutiful...lovely...i'm flying high...

today in the afternoon i got a very good news...i'm very happy...he's making his presence felt every now and then today...when i got the news i just went in the balcony...and it started raining!!

a beautiful way to make me realise that he's there with me..i'm not celebrating alone...he's celebrating with me...he's dancing with me...laughing with me...he's in love with me!!

happy janmashtami... :)

he's all mine...!

sometimes we find ourselves complaining about things that we expected but did not happen...its fair!
whats unfair is that we claim to be in love n then expect certain things in return. love does not work that way! love only knows giving. we give a lot in love..but when we expect anything in return all we end up getting is misery, frustration & the feeling that my love is not true..
on the other hand when we give & expect nothing in return, our whole life becomes an expression of our love. and also, when we do not expect anything, we gain a lot in return...and then it just becomes a bundle of surprises! then, every moment we simply learn to live more, and love more...and before we even know it, it has already turned into divine love!
when you're in love with the divine, you cannot expect anything, because you already are so content and satisfied with mere feeling of being in love with the divine that you have nothing to ask for!
the divinity itself then gives you immense love in return. in some or the other form..the only trick is for you to identify it! you might feel that you are in love with an idividual but at that point of time divinity might be right next to you and you would not recognise it or appriciate it.
so, appriciate all that you get. who knows, it might just be krishna...one word of love, one tear of gratitude, one smile of appriciation can turn your whole life into divine love. all that is expected out of you is a smile...and its not very hard is it?
there fore just be happy, be yourself, love yourself, love everyone around, and appriciate smallest of things and simply enjoy the divine love..!
soar high in love with the divine, your krishna, and just say to yourself.."he's all mine!"

Krishna - Illusion, Attraction, Eternal Love...

If we look around, we find thousands of things that attract us. Let it be a nice material object or a beautiful person. Attraction is a part of life & we come accross it more than once. The most importatnt thing to understand here is that this is an illusion. All these attractions are illusive.They say that if you feel that you are attracted towards something just let yourself know that it is Krishna playing mind games. He's the illusive, beautiful, attractive being. So if you're attracted towards something or someone, its not that being or that object you're attracted to. It is krishna that you're attracted to. If only you realise this, then life becomes simpler. All the illusions simply fade away. And you see the only truth - Krishna. Behind all the things that attract you, elude you and make you crave for them, chase them...its your eternal love with him that is working. So the key to stability is to realise your eternal love and surrender all your feelings to him. Then, every small attraction towards any material thing seems very minute in comparison to your eternal love...and when you spot your krishna, then he becomes yours and your love blossoms...

my meditation..

I sat down & closed my eyes. It was a nice, calm & clear evening. The wind too was still. And my mind was drifting away deeper n deeper into meditation. It was just a few minutes after I started that a vision started developing in front of my eyes...very vague at the begining but then it became very vivid-so much that I could almost feel myself being there. It was a small river. I was sitting on the bank of the river with my feet in the water. Looking at the horizon I just sat there for a while, thinking, when the sprinkles of water on my face brought me back to this end of the river. He was playing in the water, Krishna. He splashed water on my face one more time. He just kept looking at me with a smile on his face.
Before i could realise what was happening, the scene had already changed. Now I was sitting on the bank of the river, beneath a huge tree. Just sitting there I kept listening to the wind blow, the river flow and him playing his flute. I turned around to look at him, because somehow I knew that this was about to get over. The music was coming to an end and so was my meditation. I did not want it to stop, I just wanted it to go on and on forever. But he finally stopped. I was simply looking at him, trying to tell him how much i wanted to sit there forever. But i could not speak, all I could do was look at him. For a moment I expected him to know what I was thinking...and I think he did. he just smiled at me, and everything became vague again. The river, krishna...and i Opened my eyes with tears in them...